Hey its just me...

wats next?

2011-03-13T08:50:00.000-07:00

oh how i missed u!! xD attachment ended! but im bringing forward my project to present to minister!!(no pressure!) lol im totally working my butt off... hope it'll be done soon!(actually this wed last! T~T).. i dunno whether i should put this down... HIS NOT A TYPICAL RED-NECK! SO BUZZ OFF! T~T

FML

2010-11-01T19:27:00.000-07:00

omg.. FML!!! my partner in this attachment is damn sway sia.. she is a freakin idiot!! wat the hell!? i dunno why the teacher picked a 1.3 GPA pointer to work on a real life project.. he is putting the sch's and his reputation on the line sia! omg! and she really pissing me off.. she can turn story until like its your fault.. omg.. like tat time i asked her to create layers(anybody knows flash knows wat im talking about) so that her work is organised.. den when the teacher come she blame me sia.. say i said to do.. den create so many layers.. den like wtf rite!? damn it sia.. den we're doing a piano learning application.. so we needed to learn the notes and all the basic stuff.. so ileft her to it.. while i studied on my own.. after 3 weeks she still can ask me the most basic question of all, "what comes after 'D'?" omg i feel like smacking her face sia... >.< den when she figured it out she can tell me, "ouh! its C, D, E rite! DID U KNOW TAT!?".. omg.. tell me how not to wack her?... omfg... FMLFMLFMLFML.. well at least im looking forward to my fav cake later... love u mum~

omg!

2010-11-01T19:22:00.001-07:00

lol! its november now!! omg i havent been a good blogger~ lol! my birthday just passed!! im OFFICIALLY 18 NOW!! xD so happy~ im of legal age! wanted to go clubbing for halloween with big bro.. but cancelled coz he broke.. >:( lol! so today is aqil's bdae!(younger bro).. he turns 13 today! xD wah so fast end of the year sia... ouh ya.. im having attachment now.. so far i have figured i'll go to RP(Republic Poly) for next year.. its the only sch im qualified to go to.. but i heard thier standards have gone up.. and i've been there.. it kinda cool.. haha! well another year another sch.. another phase of life that needs change.. lol! well wish me luck for my attachment and getting into poly *crosses fingers* xD

i dunno wat to do

2010-08-18T21:50:00.000-07:00

just had latest news tat we are in terrible state.. family is like half the time we are fighting(mom&dad) an the another just annoyed with each other.. mostly its financial but i wanna help by working but they dun let when tat is the only solution... i will only try to work on holidays or weekends... but she doesnt give me a chance.. big bro is practicaly broke m ost of the time.. dad likes to pamper us with stuff but doesnt think of the future whether anot we have money left.. mom is left paying all the bills.. i dunno wat to do.. i wanna help...

holis!! NOT!

2010-08-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

well starting tmr i'll be having 2 weeks of holidays.. but not so much.. GOT LOTS OF PROJECTS!!! so tired from fasting and den need do proj.. so im pushing myself to do it.. so far i didnt get debarred from exams..(thank god!) so im trying my best to do my proj in time.. how i wish all are individual work.. den i can do it.. T~T but anyways.. had an awkward moment ytd.. lol.. dunno why....... nvm, my prob.... lol!! anyways i let go of manja(T~T)(cat) and 2 kittens found their way to my house xD so AWESOME! so we hope we can keep them.. xD thats all and wish me luck for proj!!!

oh well...

2010-08-09T18:26:00.001-07:00

well thought national day was gonna be better.. i guess tat was wishful thinking.. 1. woke me up so early in the morning to transfer $$, tat was ok coz i forgot so that was my prob.. but den u ask me to buy breakfast la wat la.. i tired already den u make me run so much erand.. so like "watever".. 2. i asked ytd that i wanted to watch fireworks at marina barrage.. but did anyone move their butt?.. no. so you can say tat ytd i really pissed.. ppl making me angry and pissing me off.. so WATEVER TO U!

wat a day.. _l_

2010-08-08T07:48:00.000-07:00

today actually wanted to suprise dad 4 his bdae.. den it went well till the end part.. fcuking stupid uncle.. we wanted to go home late but dad wanted to watch soccer, so we just agreed to go home la.. den mum go n open her mouth to pick uncle up to go home.. the car is already small den u expect us to squeeze inside.. and its the back le.. mom is infront with all the space she needs but not us.. ARGH! den the road got prob la.. den dad not happy la.. den start scolding everyone.. my uncle think like he big shot coz he DJ.. fcuk him la.. den go get YOUR OWN HOUSE!! YOUR OWN CAR!! dun fcuk up other ppl's life...

I FINALLY GOT IT!!

2010-08-07T05:39:00.000-07:00

I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sry! im just SUPER excited tat i HAVE my AUTOGRAPHED TOKIO HOTEL ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay me!! i had juju(friend) to go help me sign.. coz i got sch(shit).. I SO WANTED TO SEE THEM!! >.< den today went over to pau's(friend) house to get it!! AND IT IS AWESOME!! shall take plenty pics of it and post it!! look forward to it! k bye i wanna listen to BILL!! *faints*

wake up call

2010-08-02T22:59:00.000-07:00

omg.. ytd dad and mom was talking to sis bout her future studies, coz recently she confessed tat she couldnt take it.. so she was looking through some of the polytechnic courses. den she asked me, "have u thought about yours?". i stood still... lol!! i really have'nt thought about it yet and im in my last year in ITE. i have a feeling like im gonna stay another year coz i need to sustain a GPA of 3.0 but all im getting is 2.5 ... it really hit me on the head.. den i went searching for courses on the net.. some i think i'll be able to get in but nothing is written on stone yet.. so, im really in a tight situation.. 1. my studies are so-so.. 2. wat im studying is WAY HARDER den anything.. 3. should i consider retaking ITE?.. T~T

love u!!!

2010-08-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

omg!!! thanks to pau n juju, im gonna GET AN AUTOGRAPHED ALBUM OF TOKIO HOTEL!!!! OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG!!! this wednesday is their SIGNING SESSION!! i so wanna GO!! bbut it's like at 6:30 at night... T~T but i think i can collect it by Saturday!.. thanks to my FSV PPL! pauwiee and psycho-juju~ >.< ^^V love u ppl!!! THANKS ALOT!!!

so COLD!!

2010-07-26T03:14:00.000-07:00

yay it rained this morning!! love it! so cold so nice~ dunno why ppl prefer warm weather.. or maybe i like the cold coz my body like always hot.. xD had fun day laugh with my LAUGHING BUDDY! dunno wth she singing(some nursery rhyme) den she wanted to sing it again den i made her laugh till a word "pony" became "POOOOOOOOOONY" hahahhahahahahaahhahahaahhaha!!! really random today xD

rants

2010-07-21T04:01:00.000-07:00

ok first thing first... HEY U IDIOT!! if u did something wrong to the person u love, go APOLOGISE la STUPID!! u like this girl den u dd something wrong infront of her friends, go and apologise infront of them! that shows u got guts! but no.. u have to go all mushy and shit on fb.. please la! u're a DUDE!!! come on!! where is ur f-ing BALLS!!?? den u kep quiet like mouse like tat! no wonder ppl dun like u BODOH!! den still think u can get the girl by saying how much u miss her la and all that crap! wtf dude!! ... 2nd: AGRHHH!!! i came back home wanting to find i can bath den play but no.... i have to see ur SHIT all over the house rite?! left the plate on the HALL table with rice on it, ur bag thrown on the f-ing floor, wrappers of i-dunno-wat-shit-u-were-eating here n there, ur FREAKING TISSUE WITH UR NOSE SHIT on the floor.. argh!! this is a house! not a LANDFILL!! just bcoz its ur own house does'nt mean u live here alone ok!? 3rd: eh! u think u who ah!? i come sch to study for my own le.. den take things here n there, u think u who!? i have to save ur f-ing life isit?! just said i forgot to bring my OWN work den keep say me!? wtf!? oi! its MY WORK LE!! say like yaya want to take my work.. ppl ask rite! dun treat me like im ur SLAVE la ok!? wah u think i stepping stone ah!? anyhow oni.... : ok i would like to apologise if i have offended anione.. i just needed to get this off my chest. for those who knows that im talking about u, i want to say sorry for my harsh-ness. and sry for the long post~ xD

stupid person

2010-07-19T04:06:00.000-07:00

u know hving people to help is something you shouldnt take advantage of ok!?.. when ppl help u should at least appreciate wat they did for u, better yet, THEY helped u!.. den u just brush them off like tat?! come on la... argh! rant rant rant~ :P.. help urself la ok.. fuck L-E-A-R-N !!!!!! gosh..

yay!

2010-07-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

yay it rained today!! like never rain like tat hahah!! trying to find more new songs.. watching mtv so boring coz shitty songs keep coming up.. :P especially the YOG song.. stupid sia!! Tabitha(dunno spelling) represent "asian"!? lol!! she didnt even win singapore idol!!! WTFWTFWTFW!! i tot at least taufik(who is 1st idol) or hadi(who IS ASIAN IDOL!?)!? SUPER FAIL SIA!! hahahahhaa

STUPID DM!

2010-07-09T10:21:00.001-07:00

omg! stupid sia today at class! department manager and some other teachers came into my class for cigarette check-up, so my fren confess he got some.. den the DM came up to me den held my shoulders and said:"she is the ONE!".. me and the whole class STUN sia! lol!! den in my heart like:"since when i smoke?!" den she continued:"the one that can DRAW" den i was like, WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF!?!?!?!?!?!?! hahahahha! damn funny sia.. scared me half to death! NOOBIEST DM EVAR!

shitty thing..

2010-07-08T02:30:00.001-07:00

damn it... this stupid website "formspring.me" f-ing irritating sia... i click my home den got some girl face.. wtf~ saying to me welcome back... _l_ wat the bleh!? hahaha stupid sia.. well ytd i think my teacher kena MALE PMS.. damn fcuked up sia.. wat the bleh.. we came in late from break but we didnt have a break since 1130 AM.. stupid rite.. we reak at 4++ den came late the fcuk teacher say our attendance 0.. den we all come sch for wat?! see u den go home ah? u think u who!? nearly walked out of the class sia.. stay for wat? when im physically there den no attendance.. fcuking messed up sia... ULTIMATE BOTAK HEAD! :P

EPIC day!!!

2010-07-06T23:00:00.000-07:00

today at lifeskills class i had an epic day with my PEOPLE!! hahahah!! laugh like no one's business sio!~ hahahah... damn epic la! keep laughing about this assignment we got, den make fun till so funny sio~~~ hahahah i heart u ppl man hahah!!

HOLIDAY!!

2010-06-10T03:39:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HOLIDAY!!
HAVOC ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xD

so sick!

2010-06-08T06:37:00.001-07:00

omg..... since last friday i sick sia..... wat the hell.... 1st flu la.. den got sore throat... den now got fever.. hahaha... didnt go sch today... dad finally let me stay home... or not i think i faint in sch sia.. ha ha ha ha.. (not funny) (blah -face) lol! really sia dun let me keng sch... not that i purposely wat.. is i really sick lor.. still dun let till my mum need ask him... -_-" watever la~ so drowsy sia the medicine..okies ciao before i land my head on the lappy..hahah nites~

i fell.....

2010-06-08T06:35:00.001-07:00

ouh ya did i say that on 29 may.. I FELL ON MY BUTT! i freakin fell half a flight of stairs lor~
T~T so pain sia my butt... now is like 8 june and my butt still pain!!!!!!! sad sia.. cannot sit properly also.. must sit on my side... T~T so tragic sia my fall......................

wah rotting!?

2010-06-08T06:32:00.001-07:00

sry sry sry... long time no write sia~ hahahahah last was like may~ sowie~ hahah... the weekends was WILD!!! 2 start whole days went for karaoke! so more i sick sia! SORE THROAT!!! hahahaha den sick till no voice sia! finished at like midnight!! hahaha!! so AWESOME! cool sia.. cash studios at orchard! lol! so happy~ long time never karaoke~ (when at home can... OPPS!) hahahahhahaha...

falling in love

2010-05-26T18:07:00.000-07:00

why is falling in love go GOD DAMN DIFFICULT!!!???? and when i do like someone, its monkey-love... IM SICK OF IT!!!...... i dun wan to live this life alone....... i just cant..... cant leave me here alone......

hehehehe...

2010-05-08T04:01:00.000-07:00

yay! mother's day tmr! woots! today purposely went out to jam so tat after that i can but mummy's gift..hehehehee~ thought could buy her a "build-a-bear" bear.. b ut so FCUKING EX!!! so went to find the perfect gift for 3 hrs on my own sia.. sad sia i alone... den found precious thoughts~ FINALLY!! got the cutest bear ever! den went to eat ALONE at mac.~ i so LONELY!!!!! lol! its ok.. for my mummy~ hahaha~ HAPPIE MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MUMS!!!! N ENJOY THAT SUNDAY PPL!! xD

arghhhh!!!

2010-04-30T00:15:00.000-07:00

WAT THE HECK!!!!!!!!!!!! just got maths results(retake) n guess wat!???!! i got a C!! wtf!! i studied like mad lor!! i want see the paper!! wtf!! ppl who nvr study kena B.. shyt siol~ reallly not happy with this shitty result sia... den how go poly like this man... fcuk la... >.<".... den stupid teacher keep asking me do work when i busy! fcuk her la! i need to catch up lor nabe... if i fail, i'll take the paper den throw at her face sia!! wtf!! now in class like stone sia.. dunno wtf teacher teaching.... haizz.. die la like this... dunno wat to do liao...

haizz..

2010-04-23T21:22:00.001-07:00

wat is going on... home got prob la... sch also la.... why cannot just let it be... i wan go out let me la... i know i got sch i already prepared for it liao le... why stop me?... aiyo... den stupid annoying teacher keep stalking me.... keep ask me do work.. ask me go her house sum more... wtf.... i can work from home rite.. haizz... lame sia now...

nice 1

2010-03-28T22:50:00.000-07:00

lame lame lame.. wtf man... hello i come home late i get shit like no one's business.. den if other ppl come late kena nag oni.. wtf! den say dun want tallk to me? wat i do siol!? den said outing on saturday den say coz me n bro go out den i nvr go out le den say cancelled so i tot sunday den go outing come home kena scolding... wtf!!! want to go out msg me la... den im already out can just meet outside rite??.. wf! can say to me that is not rite.. wat the fcuk!!!!!!!!!!! hello no logic rite!? now say i grounded shit u la.... they dunno lor.. other ppl already out for a purpose ah will go out from there ok!!? den oni i stuck at home ah!? den wat? become maid for u ah!?? fcuk it la..

will u be there? (poem)

2010-03-17T06:28:00.001-07:00

love is not easy, it can be nice and also eerie. my love for thee is always at its peak, when u are around or when i seek. my heart aches whenever i remember i cant hv you, n against it all i don't want it to be true. my love is like rose, beautiful n wonderful, but if i want it, it'll prick me and leave a blood trail. and if i do not love, all of me will crumble on top of wat i have. and if u leave me, i will try not to burden thee......

its over!!!~

2010-03-09T22:56:00.000-08:00

omfg!!! just had finals in this week... lucky only 2 paper sia... cannot tahan man~ so lost in this subject la!! cant wait till i go second year and take media course!! god damn!!! quickly la!! maths was okok but i did ALOT OF CARELESS MISTAKES!!! nyah!!~ so sad lor!! correct formula wrong number.. GRRR!~ den networking paper... GG SIOL!!~ tak boleh angkat! cannot make it!! CMI CMI CMI CMI!!!!!!! finally i AM FREE!!!!!! haizz....(thinking of ways to spend my holidays~) AND IT LATS TILL APRIL!!! AHHHH~

it was AWES-MAZING!!!!

2010-03-05T19:46:00.000-08:00

omg!! thx man!!! ling i love u so much!!! she taiko win tix to alice in wonderland den she brought me!!!!! AHHH~!! so happy~ i saw johnny depp!!! lol he act as mad hatter cute siol!!! overall the show was AWES-MAZING!!!!!!~ i wan watch again!! veri the nice sia!! the soundtrack also damn nice sia!!! must listen to painting flowers!! wheres my angel!! tea party!! strange!! her name is alice!! alice!! the technicolor phase!! welcome to mystery!!!!!!! omfg!! all nice siol!!~ I WAN WATCH AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!

im lost!!!!

2010-03-03T02:20:00.000-08:00

why la!! u had to be kind n..n...n.. GOOD?! to me rite!!?? i dun wan this but if i dun see u, my heart cries out for u.. shyt la... must control myself lo!!! why the f*** is happening to me!!?? ok settle this once n for all.. i let u go willingly.. all of u... sian..(i sound like slut sia..shyt~) lol!! lame ass rite me?? lol.. thx meerah.. for getting urself in this shyt!!

EPIC jokes with bro~~

2010-02-24T05:57:00.000-08:00

damn funny sia tonight.. remember kumar's joke on chinese girls n how they are fragile? read this--> bro n i hving dinner den we talkng half way i wanted to tell him something den i hit my hand at his elbow den i like 'spamming hit' den he said "stop hitting me or i'll dislocate!!~" me: " u're not chinese, u're peranakan la!" bro: "huh?" me: "if i hit u, u cut me, KNOCK me, den cook BUAH KELUAK!!~"<---(peranakan dish) HAHAHAHHEHHEH!~ den i complain to my mum bout my uncle.. me: "mummy u know wat, i always wake up by uncle le.. he on the volume on the tv damn lous sia.." mum: " this is wat u get from working as a DJ" HAHAHAHAHEHEHEH!!~ his hearing gone liao!! hhahahahahahah epic sia!!

MELACCA!!!

2010-02-19T05:47:00.001-08:00

hey!!! this is all the pics from my cny holiday to melaca!!
it was freakin awesome there.. lol
here r the pics(finally) hehee enjoy!

cousins... was at A CNY celebration at another cousin's hse..

uncle wasnt to get a pagoda tt look like this..
GOOD LUCK!!

mummy n tuai-po..(first grand-aunt)

GOAT!!!

uncle trying to get coconuts.. hehee~

walk to OBLIVION!!!!!!~ muahahahahahaha..

HEN n CHICK!!!!

COW!!!!

scary sia play this thing...

stare only ah... cannot bring over..

auntie mei lin(mum's cousin), auntie roz(uncle kanchil's wife), uncle kanchil,
mum n tok kunngah. (a.k.a. grand-uncle)

i know its a fruit tree but i forgot wat fruit..
hehehehe~

the old well where my uncles, aunties n mum bath...

plants n flowers from tok kunngah's hse..

first time hear fire-cracker sia.. so LOUD!!
sry abit tilted.. got shocked... hehee~

wah this hse ah.. electricity bill BOOM sia!!

kak diana, aiman, kak nadia n fika..

uncle kanchil!

miza, kak qila n kak long..

aqilah eating cupcake from kenny n rogers..

uncle hse in a hill!!

hahahah!!! uncle the lady's finger all stand up 1 !!! hahaha

they replanted the trees and make them align.. so cool..

guess painting is not enough.. hehehhe~

bukit katil...(a.k.a MOUNT MATTRESS!!) LOL~

the mosque look like japanese temple sia...

V DAY!!

so obssesed about these electric towers.. hehehheheheh~

bye bye..

2010-02-10T02:49:00.000-08:00

sry but my nyayi(grandma) just passed away today... so i just wanna post that she was smiling when she left, i got to see her off to the grave.. im happy that i had toughen up to bath her corpse.. im really sry nyayi for not letting you get to knpw me or the other way around.. i didnt shed a tear but i was dissapointed with myself that i didnt let u knw me... im sry... have a safe journey and we'll be together soon..

yipee!!~

2010-02-07T20:54:00.000-08:00

yay!!! im going off soon!!! THIS FRIDAY!!!! 12 FEB 2010!!!~ i sure bring cam until battery die sia!! lol.. so excited sia!!! hope we have a safe trip there and back.. please pray for us.. AND WILL SEE U SOON!!!~

love you grandma...

2010-02-05T09:08:00.000-08:00

hi... sry bit down coz i nearly lost my granma.. shes the only grandma i have left.. but i cant really stop time... and its my fault not letting me and her bond like wat my bro and the rest of my cousins have with her... im very distance yet im blood-related.. haizz... im sry nyayi.... but in all i still love u dearly...................

i am SO LAME!!!

2010-02-03T17:29:00.000-08:00

today damn "good" sia.. 1. i woke up quite late but its ok.. can manage.. 2. bro also coming out with me.. say he want come out at 7 but end up coming out at 7:15.. its ok.. can tell teacher got jam... lol.. 3. bus was damn empty... i thought because i late.. den felt something wrong liao... 4. bus did not turn.. 5. realised i got on the wrong bus......... GG den thought can wait until theres a place where near my sch den alight.... skali it went from bukit panjang to bukit timah to jalan naga sari... IM LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~ heng~ my dad say got bus back home... he said here was no bus from there to my sch.. the only way was to go back n take the bus... den FORGET IT!!~ i go home... collect mc.... -_-" dunno why i was so distracted... hiazz lucky can come back home..

poor sch..

2010-02-02T04:54:00.000-08:00

wow on sunday 31st jan 2010.. my sch.. ite dover got burnt down.. and of all places.. the area where my classes are..LOL!!!~ den monday no need sch coz they investigating.. lol.. den today went to sch found out that some of our stuff got burnt... lol!!! heng~ i nvr leave stuff sia.. den the fire burnt the staff room first i think den spread to the other levels.. lol!! 2nd to 4th burnt for block 1.. lol den we now sharing classrooms with engineering classes.. weird sia.. lol!! den networking class at jamming room.. hehee~ keep on wanting to go in but den didnt know it would be in this kind of way.. lol!!

crazy....

2010-02-01T04:53:00.000-08:00

wah again she tell me i nvr do work(chores).. den say right infront of me when i DOING laundry.. kns rite... WTF!!! hello i doing work rite wtf u want some more!?.. clean u and bath u also huh!!?? nabei... wtf man... ust bcoz i took out wrong fish(coz i dun have any idea wat that fish was) and forgot to cut veg.. wtf!!! i mean veg sry la really completely forgot but come home can do rite... nabei... den some more i need to do laundry.. WHAT SOME MORE FUCKING THINGS U NEED ME DO!!!

im going off!!

2010-01-29T05:10:00.000-08:00

YAY!!!!!~ finally i can come out of singapore sia!!! lol.. im leaving on the 12th of feb.. heehehe~ gone till the 16th.. lol.. going to melaka to visit my grand uncles grand aunties and other relatives to celebrate chinese new year..(mum's side of the family(my mum is chinese if u dunno.. hehee~))..lol.. den gonna get ANG BAO lol!!~ this year i should be rich.. hehehee! collect from chinese new year n hari raya.. lol!!! I LIKE!!~ hehehee~

haizzzz...

2010-01-29T05:04:00.000-08:00

just came back home from going out... been like YEARS since i was out... wow this weekend pack sia my schedule... hehee~ Saturday will be going out to buy groceries la and support my frens at a singing competition thingy.. lol.. den sunday going fren's wedding lol..(long time nvr see her.. and CONGRATSS!!!~) lol.. den monday i think me n my family going out.. treat by dear long lost uncle... lol( lost coz he always not close wit us den literally 'disappear' 1).. hehehee~ like buzy sia this weekend.. i like!!~ den monday n=might be going to play pool or bowling wit frens.. wow~

fcuk it..

2010-01-26T02:57:00.000-08:00

everytime ask me... everytime ask me.. DO I LOOK LIKE A FREAKIN MAID TO YOU HUH!?.. wtf man.. they are like freakin-ly doing nothing and i have to do EVERYTHIN!?? shit sia.. what kind of 'change' is this man???.. say you'll gonna change.. CHANGE MY ASS LA!!~ FCUK!

why?!...

2010-01-23T03:10:00.000-08:00

why is it always me?... why must people relay on me?.. huh!?.. wtf!! im not the only one at home u know??!!!!... why are u so afraid to ask????!!!! chicken pie.. den nothing to do always ask me... why dun disturb her huh!???... F***!... say already still do the same thing.. wtf!!!!! thank u man... u make my life 'better'.. THANKS!

i think.

2010-01-14T04:04:00.000-08:00

maybe i want to write a book.... lol!!~ for myself to see!! hehehehehee want kind of book is that sia.. lol.. i think i read too much then still in the reading fever... but really i feel like writing a story.. how i wish i still can write compo... let my mind free abit... lol!!~ well those who read this and wants to know more let me know.. i might get started on it.. hehehehee~ [^^]V

stirred feelings..

2010-01-12T06:45:00.000-08:00

why have i gotten it wrong?.. do i blame me or you?.. why cant there be a straight way to get the answer... can it be resolved by silence?.. will this cease?.. why did my heart flipped when you're near? and ache when i remember those words... finding shelter from the rage is never found.. the feeling of loneliness is threatening my barrier that has been built since young.. penetrating needles piercing through it.. my heart.. my mind... falling deep into something unknown... feeling of unworthiness fed the energy of those needles... making their way in me.. finding the most vulnerable part of me... leaving me scarred, shattered...

omg how can i forget!!!

2010-01-09T08:37:00.001-08:00

omg i so totally forgot that on 27th nov 09 we have a brand new kitten!!

lol!!!!

we named him patchie.. coz he has a patch on his forehead..

CUTE RITE!!!!!

lol...

well this is all his pics...

sry if some upside-down...hehehhe

ENJOY!!!

This 1 he still young... so cute~

I SURRENDER!!~

lol.. this 1 he not yet have teeth.. cutie!!

he so young fat liao!!!

first time..

2010-01-03T20:58:00.000-08:00

omg.. lucky me and my dad ok sia... this morning after sending my mum to jurong east my dad suppose to send me to sch.. den got jam so he took another route.. suddenly, the car infront stop, when you too close to the traffic light you might as well cross right?.. but this guy never( cant blame.. old man..).. i told my dad to relax.. coz its raining den sch start liao den traffic damn bad.. so when my dad said why this person jam break he also jam break.... den we both:"SHYT!!".. lol.. den got bang into the front car lor.. sian.. end up i didnt go school.. first day some more.. haizz.. den my dad now emo.. keep saying he dun wan drive liao and fated for him not to.. lol!.. first time sia i in accident.. some more i INSIDE the car.. see from outside ok la... but i INSIDE LE!!.. lol.. the bang so hard my neck pain sia(but now ok..).... damn scary sia.. heng we ok...

had a GREAT DAY!

2010-01-03T05:43:00.000-08:00

today actually suppose to go out to geylang.. but me n my siblings woke up late.. my dad wants to go at 8A.M.!! so i pretend sleepy lor..(actually am sleepy..) den 10 plus my mum woke me up again.. so i decided to wake up la..(pity my dad).. so went to bath den tell my sis to bath next.. den when everyone ready.. we got stuck.. STUCK TO TV!! lol!! was watching a movie..(cant remember..) so first we left for fajar to alter my mum's pants.. den i thought we going home next but den my dad drove us to tampines.. eat there and took letters..(i used to live there..) den i really thought we going home.. den my dad wanted to bring us go FISH FARM!! lol.. damn cool la..(and smelly..) so we went there like scared whether are we allowed in or not.. lol.. so we just walk in lor.. den see plant, fishes, BIG DOGS!, more fishes, more plant.. den we saw a cute dog.. SUPER CUTE sia! den 2 cats.. 1 of it is siamese cat.. thought can bring back.. lol..(thinking only..) hehehe.. den me. my sis n my mum got bored of the fishes den we walk back to the car.. then we saw 4 BIG DOGS!! SCARED LIKE HELL SIA!! my mum like wonder woman can call them over like that.. lol!!..(go mummy!).. den my big bro not satisfied.. so we went further up.. got farm resort(didnt know existed!).. damn cool place.. can fish ur own dinner!! den like resirt like that.. can stay 1.. so cool.. so went there an all planned to stay there for the holidays.. so we left den it was still early den i suggested to go Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve.. lol.. we reach at the front door got MONITOR LIZARD SIA!!! so much of my mum being wonder woman.. she saw the lizard she screamed.. -_-".. lol!.. so we bought the tickets(cheap le for students!).. den head inside.. saw ALLIGATOR!!! lol.. saw Tree Climbing Crabs also.. so cool.. and LOTS OF MUDSKIPPERS!! lol.. den walk2.. till super tired.. damn cool sia that place saw alot of stuff... den we came back home had PIZZA HUT dinner.. nice.. hehehehe!! [^^]V.. sry very long this post.. hehe

so bored in the morning...

2009-12-31T10:54:00.000-08:00

me n azhar (some got my bro) web cam whoring..

well me n him(s)..

ENJOY!!!

first few pics of 2010!!!~

hehehehehehe [^.^]

action moschino!!! lol!!

new pics for the new year!

2009-12-31T09:03:00.000-08:00

new year pics.. hope u like them.. its just me..(heading home.. on new years..)

hehheheheh

(random...[>.<]")

HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!

2009-12-31T08:50:00.001-08:00

3...2....1.....0!!!!~ HAPPIE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!~ lets kick 2009 to the curb and welcome 2010!!! lets hope that this year is gonna be as adventurous as always!!!! what i wish? well thats a ong list... 1.pass with flying colours!! 2. lose weight.. about 20kg? if its possible.. 3. buy MORE CLOTHES!!!~ 4. make sure i will do my best in everything.. 5. find love.....(am i asking too much!?) lol!!!~ all in all, i hope this year would be nicer to me... HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES/RESOLUTIONS COME TRUE!!!!!!!!

hole..

2009-12-30T02:32:00.000-08:00

i have this hole in me that is longing for something that i cannot have.. i am craving for that time when this hole of mine can be filled with the joyous feeling and the love that is meant for it.. the craving of someone beside me everytime i cried and everytime i smiled.. that special thing that cant be claimed by me.. i may sound desperate but i just feel that this longing for self-warmth is strong that it saddens me that i cannot find what i have lost...

wtf....

2009-12-29T09:50:00.000-08:00

now my other frend are hving problems... just because of a rejection or misinterpretion of someone's attitude.... wth... arent they abit old to do this kind of things.. come on la.. just because something happened here abitonli want to break friendship la, dun wan talk la, cannot meet up la... i find it UBER STUPID!!! not saying that i dun like or i also want to break friendship.. im just thinking out loud.. the actins brought forward is lame..........

WEBCAM-WHORING!!

2009-12-17T04:30:00.000-08:00

CAM WHORNG TIME!!!!
playing with lights much!?

Something to advertise..

And again...

Close ups babey!!!!

SexySexy!!!

SO THW WORLD YOUR FACES!!

WHOO HOO!!

All about the HANDS people!!

And again..

LOOK AT MY LIPS BABEYZ!!

model in the making..

GRRR!!

RANDOM-NESS!!

CUTEYZ!!

CHEEZEY!!

ACT CUTE ONI!!

Peace ppl!!

Acting cutie again...

ok all is me and my frens..

and my bro..

lazy wan to write.. hehehe

IM NOT PISCES!!~

IM A MONKEY GIRLIE!!

im lost AGAIN!

2009-12-14T18:55:00.001-08:00

what the F*** am i doing? why do i always make myself mixed up in this kind of situation.. i dun wanna be a slut or anything but still... what does liking more than 1 person get you?! more trouble thats what i believe but guess what?! i cant let go of any!! Fantastic.. just what i needed another heart and head-ache... why do i fall for these kind of things...

meet the geeks!

2009-12-10T19:26:00.000-08:00

GEEK ALERT!!!~ The lost trio... niza, fiq n yogi!

Geeky yogi..lol

Wow..

missing trio.. lol..

SAM!!~

Rabia.. looks good on u.. hehehehee

NIZA!!! act cute only..

ME-ISH!!!!

mukhlis..a.k.a. night crawler, betrayer of the light, F.F.W.B. , mayor... and more

Geek Mas

Auntie mag !!! lol

GEEKY JETTY!!

Lost Faz

Geek Chris n Sam

HAHAHA SO HAPPY!~

2009-12-01T16:28:00.001-08:00

YAYAYAYAYAY!!!~ i got a new TOUCH SCREEN phone... and i just shift into a new house... AND!~ IM GONNA GET A NEW LAPTOP!!!!!!!!~ OF MY OWN TOO!!!!~ ouh ya... IM ALSO WATCHING NEW MOON this friday!!!!!!! so happy this week... *sighs*..

YAY!!~

2009-11-20T08:20:00.000-08:00

lol finally i got new phone!!! samsung preston... lol... touch screen sia... lol finally can get touch screen.. wanted nokia N97 but $600+ cannot afford... so sad.. but its ok i got another touch screen phone lor... hehehee... so happy.. but den when i sms i type damn slow sia... the button small den my thumb kinda big den always press wrong button hehehee... but not bad la.. quite friendly.. hehehe CANT WAIT FOR MY LAPPY TO COME!!!

wow... im SO TIRED!!

2009-11-07T07:56:00.000-08:00

OMG!!~ i didnt know that painting a house can be SUPER TIRING lor!.... i and my stepdad has been painting the new house since yesterday... omg... den my wrist like twisted sia.... damn pain le... den my legs were killing me coz got no sits... the floor was dirty with cement... den i spilled the paint here and there... super tiring sia!! omg.... now my wrist still pain sia... cannot turn properly... scared sprained sia.. lol.. hope not that bad la... *crosses fingers*

what now...

2009-11-07T07:48:00.000-08:00

hmm... i have to let go.... i want to cry but cant find a reason why... if i do cry.... its because of mine own mistake... i cant reveal it... why?!... i feel like breaking down and just letting it go..but for wat?.. its my fault... am i strong enough to let 'it' go?... can i?... will i?...im trying to but whenever 'it' comes by i feel weird and i everything that i build up just crumble down again... den when i left it open to let 'it' in again, 'it' just breaks my heart and leave my trembling... leaving me a harder way to put that barrier up again... have decision do i have to make?...

whats happening...

2009-10-21T00:36:00.001-07:00

what going on now sia... i thought of not letting 'it' in my life but now im actually letting 'it' in...wat if it doesnt work out?... will i suffer again... haizz... i am so confuse... i think i should just stay calm and be open... if it hurts den i just have to face the music shouldnt i?...

had fun...

2009-10-18T18:10:00.000-07:00

lol last friday me and some friends went to sentosa!!! siloso beach!!!~ first time sia i go play at sea... hehehe at first me n faz(friend) watch movie...FAME!~ lol suppose with another friend but he last minute back out... so just both of us... hehehe he so sweet....share his jacket lol!~ den we left for sentosa... hehehehe met friends at vivo den took monorail to sentosa!!!!~ so exciting sia!~ den we played beach volleyball dunno how to play sia... hehehe just anyhow.... den we play at sea there... faz keep on canonball sia... salty sia the sea water... lol!~ den we about 9 like that left for home.... lucky got bus sia or not we walk hehehe.... had fun though!!!~ hehehehe...

headache la...

2009-10-14T17:09:00.001-07:00

alamak.... my head painful sia yesterday.... DAMN painful... den to top it off i kena my 'friend'.... sian den stomach pain la head pain la... thought of not coming to school today but no choice later kena DEBARRED agian.... haizzz..

first time sia...

2009-10-13T18:15:00.000-07:00

yesterday i did something sia.... i ditched sch.... sianzz... den hanged out wit fazli(classmate) at bedok... met him there end up not going to school... sian... den he show some freaky videos sia!! some nice like some guys doing a dance look like shuffle like that... but he said it was called Cdance or something like that... den omg~ he showed me the grossest thing i have every seen sia.... i no more innocent already... this guy has a zit on his BACK... usual those are small but this guy... ITS HUGE... den the wife cut it open to squeeze it... she squeeze it den ALOT of pars come out sia.... alot le!!~ damn scary la... aiyo den i watch like want to vomit sia.... aiyoyo...

omg!!~

2009-10-13T18:10:00.000-07:00

wow... just read a book in the mrt and its SO gore... my hands were numb sia... the story was about this girl who got abuse by her father... not beatting you know... SEXUALLY HARASSMENT... den the book writes that the father like blood... he would get excited den when she had her period he on.. but when dun have he would cut the ahem ahem...!!!~ OMG!!!~ den they describe to the fullest extend sia... omg... some more i reading in the mrt... nearly dropped the book sia coz my hands numb... siala....

sch begins...

2009-10-11T17:35:00.000-07:00

sianz.... today the sch starts... so boring... den new teacher sia... lame.... hitlers lost bro... moustache damn long 1..... threat like he owns the place like that....damn stupid la.... so now everythings starts.... let the boredom begin...

war...

2009-10-11T02:40:00.000-07:00

why when i feel you, you push me away by having sum1 else that looked like 'they' have a special meaning in your life.... am i over reacting? am i being stupid? or is my instints rite? can i ever trust to open my heart once again and feel love instead of the wounded holes that have punctured it? when i want to forget you after that very instance that tore my heart, you came into my mind again... keep aluring me... keep wanting me to give you a chance again... but can i? will i? how can something so small be as big as this? all because i cant share my feelings... will i have the courage to actually face you? and tell you? will there be time left for it? i have a war of my own that can't and will not end...

travelling...

2009-10-11T02:33:00.000-07:00

lol got headache sia... riding in van.. jkjk oni... trying to show off my cool hair.. heheh
peace people!!! only speak peace lol

can see my COOL hair??!!!

LOVE my RED hair!!!!!!!

in my room... hehehe

2009-10-11T02:24:00.001-07:00

new shades babeh...

omg!!! i love my hair...

hahahha hitlers lost sister!!!! bushy moustache!!!

damn emo in my p.js

WHO THAT??!

KISS-U!~

lol nothing to do at home... its all me... cam-whoring.. alone...

lol!!~

2009-10-11T02:16:00.001-07:00

this picture i take nice rite???!! lol no editing u know...

damn cool la...

lol... my mum... Mrs X lol!!! she dun like take pictures 1...

i think fate also helping her... the light so bright...

my bro... face nice rite?? lol... we went to IKEA tampines there...

then he damn angry coz i nothing better to do... hehe

wow... the SMALLEST frying pan i have ever seen...

cute sia...

ok la...

2009-10-01T21:52:00.000-07:00

sianzz.. i just got my exam results.... so sad... to pass to poly i need 2.8 gpa(thats grade points) ... I GOT 2.5... argghhh!!!~ so CLOSE!!!~ damn sian... den my friend(jetty) he left for aussie nvr tell us 1... nvr get to send him off... hope he bring back something sia... lol.. sianzz... now in library with ling... got kicked out from project(lame story) just because of SLIPPERS.... damn her la... my work all went down the drain..... BEE-YOUCH...

ouh ya...

2009-09-23T00:19:00.000-07:00

hari raya... so damn tiring sia!!!~... eve of raya i wake up at 9 in the morning(got forced to wake up) to make ketupat... den work till 9 at night sia!!~ damn tiring la... my back, hand, leg all cramp sia... sit there make ketupat den put the rice inside... sian... den not done yet... still have to help my bro clean the house... from 9pm to 4:30 IN THE MORNING le!... den sleep like about 5 hrs... woke up at 9 again to prepare for 1st day of raya... haiz... my eyes like panda like that sia.... but collected alot of money..... hehehehehehe

goodbye...

2009-09-23T00:13:00.000-07:00

my uncle past away today... just came back from his funeral.. but i didnt follow go the cemetery... i scared lol.. im sorry for their lose... he was a good uncle la... never bully me 1... hehehe will miss him and hope his family can move on...

heheheh

2009-09-23T00:11:00.000-07:00

lol yesterday had a chalet with me classmates!!!~ lol damn funny den teacher teach us how to play new GAMBLING game... lol... teach us wrong things ah cher... lol... had fun but love the makan part!!~ hehehehehe damn nice... den got 2 people in the room alone... must knock2 hor... lol..!!~ (dun worry wont say who hor sam?) lol oppss.. well just wanna say thanks 4 inviting me... lol.. and see u guys in school soon!!!~ happie holidays guys!!~

shit u..

2009-09-16T00:53:00.000-07:00

i have this auntie ah who really lives up to her zodiac man... she really SNAKE sia... damn it la... my mum ask her for money den will always pay back full amount... my auntie? wait long long ah... shit rite?!... bugger sia... some more my mum took loan for her le... shyt den its my mum who pay back the bank not her... kns.. den my mum help her daughter by PAYING FOR HER WEDDING le... up to 5k le... den my auntie dun wan return it... bugger sia... den scold my mum... what the FUCK!!???

damn sian

2009-09-15T23:06:00.000-07:00

lol this was yesterday... heading to geylang via mrt den damn pack.. lol
i nothing better to do so i took a photo... lol ya im damn bored tt time..
the lady keep stare2 me sia... i think coz i took her pic.. lol

lol my bro... he action model like that lol.... this is the shit of a brother i have..
but i still love him.. lol.. still..

im F***ing tired

2009-09-13T19:27:00.000-07:00

im SO tired... jpd teacher is calling me out for a stupid project tat has got nothing to do with me man... why me... haiz... she is redoing everything!!!~ do already still want to do again... backiside... dunno for the public awareness or designing sia!!~ wtf!!~

wow

2009-09-13T19:09:00.000-07:00

lol had a fight with my brother... he damn stupid la... ci bai... he tease like nobodyies business den i say him cannot... bullshit man... what justice is this?
he said, "adik i gaining weight la.. well, at least i not fat as u can!"... damn ci bai rite?... den i nvr say anything hor... den after that phone rang... stepdad wanted to speak to him... den he like "ok..ok...ok.." so i curios i ask him.. he said" ouh i ask about taking leave.." den my mum said " ayah ask bout geylang la.." den i damn fed up la... why he cannot tell me truth... den i angry den my bro said he didnt get me..(dumb blonde)... den i said " ya u still syuck in your own carrybanner world..." den sial la.... he slapped me... damn ci bai rite?... backside... den i like"wth!~" den his face black... den he take blueberry drink n pour on me... F*** him sia... den i go to him and throw my plate(ouh ya i was eating)... den i shouted at him vulgarities in front of my mum... nice... den i say " oi u say me can but when i say u cannot ah!~"... damn bugger la he... why he my bro i also dunno.... i think i in wrong family sia....

pls help me!~

2009-09-09T21:30:00.000-07:00

can anione help me?... i need songs!!~ ignorance-paprmore, fallen for you-colbie caillat and you belong with me-taylor swift...im obssesd with these songs!!!~ i love the paramore 1.. lol!!!~ i love them man.... ROCK RULEZZ!!!~ pls hrlp me any1... email the sings to me or something lol... shadowkitty_17@hotmail.com.....

wow

2009-09-03T22:47:00.000-07:00

wow i didnt know mt jpd teacher can be so up tight... lol working on the project like frantic like that... lol. omg n im in the middle of it... lol!~ wish me luck and guess wat my exams are coming... nice....

fridat outing to industry

2009-09-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

stress so many food
nice face
kfc kena owned
faz n fish
fish n kyt

lame people...

2009-09-03T19:56:00.000-07:00

lol we on the truck... the wind super strong sia!!!~
lol our stupid faces except for step sis!!~ lol

NYAH!!~

2009-09-03T17:49:00.001-07:00

i VERY the TIRED!!!~ i so sleepy... i woke up at 4:30am to break fast den i i nvr go back to sleep oz need go school!!~ i so TIRED!!!~ i actually cant wait to move to the west so that i can sleep longer... hmmm... but den the 1st meeting to pass the key is on Oct... SO LONG!!!!~ hurry hurry la... den can move n celebrate my birthday... hehehe

anime convention outing.. lol

2009-09-01T18:23:00.000-07:00

Ling shy2
Hi pau!!~
jetty n me...
poor pau kena line up for train ticket
kiddy pau

tis is sonia n me... old skool friend.. hehehe
Ling looks scared lol

im tired....

2009-09-01T17:18:00.000-07:00

wow yesterday slept at 2 sia... backside... play game... lol. nice game sia.... lol kinda kiddy la but very nice to play... kinda like spyro.... lol i very the kiddy lol.. haizzz... den woke up to breakfast at 5 den straight away got ready for school... sianzzz... i damn tired now... no VERY VERY VERY VERY tired.... but i still dun mind going out... just depends on the day... lol!~

Yay finally i saw azhar...

2009-09-01T17:15:00.000-07:00

lol finally i just met azhar raz from anugera(my bro friend)... lol always talk on phone but nvr met him face to face... lol... saw him at woodlands den laugh like nobodies business like that... lol!~ den im gonna kill my bro, he told them sumthing private sai!!! backside... gonna kill him.... grrr... SHYT U LA ABANG!!!~

aiyo...

2009-08-31T01:51:00.000-07:00

haizz... now puasa very the tiring sia!!~ wat to do... damn boring at home la!! can sum1 pls bring me go out!!~ i very the bored man... any up coming movie nice or not? so far i see like nothing le... PLS SUM1!!!~ BRING ME GO OUT!!!~

i love my new blog!!~

2009-08-27T22:47:00.000-07:00

poeple please help me if u know hoe to make the blog go center lol i lost hehehe... yay at least i can actually hv a proper blog.. hehehe yay thanks to niza(again)..heheheh

yes i love u NIZA

2009-08-27T20:53:00.000-07:00

NIZA!!!~ i love u sia... thanky 4 helping me and my ancient blog!!!~ hehehehe i so happy i finally can change everything and get linked lol!!!~ THANK YOU!!!!~ hehehehehe see u in school!!~ bb

welcomed..

2009-08-25T22:40:00.000-07:00

yay... ive been the outcast for too long already... im so happy that some part of that life of mine is kinda gone... i hope so... lol im trying to test myself on how to be more outgoing... lol i know its kinda ridiculous... hey, its just me... lol... well wish me best of luck..

FINALLY!~...cont..

2009-08-25T17:37:00.000-07:00

hehehhe sry pple!!!~ accidentally left it like that hehehehe... ok right FINALLY IM DONE WITH MME(multimedia Essentials) PROJECT!!!~ damn irritating sia that project! need to create website den do wrong den it took me about 9hrs just to complete it!!~ teacher never teach finish den want us do like we know how to...backside....

FINALLY!~

2009-08-25T17:36:00.001-07:00

and i thought i could relax...

2009-08-24T00:51:00.000-07:00

SHYT MAN!!!~ this stupid mme thing is really driving me wild sia!!~ first ask u to make a website den never teach how to link the page...den when im finally done with it... teacher asked us to put animation(like moving words and buttons)... BACKSIDE LA!!~ damn irritating sia!~ i just only want to relax den got other projects ARRGGHH! how i wish i had a comp but cant... backside...

2009-08-21T01:57:00.000-07:00

honestly its like im writing to myself coz NO ONE has viewed my blog...wow...amazing...

Sry for not updating...

2009-08-21T01:53:00.000-07:00

lol hey ppl!!~ its the 2009 right now!!! its been 2 yrs since i came here...sry people.. lol dun hav comp at home... and totally forgot that i had a blog..lol oh ya.. im in ite dover now... studying i.t. im ok so far... will try not to write long2..hehehe well will write soon hehehe

PLEASE HELP ME!!!

2007-11-29T22:46:00.000-08:00

hi everyone...
hey people i need help..do any of you know how to change the layout of the blog??...i tried but ended up getting something i didnt wanted...pls help me!!!!

thanky..MeeRaH-ChAn OuT~

Just had a miserable camp...

2007-11-22T17:29:00.000-08:00

hey there ppl
hey i just had my red cross camp and it was suppose to be a big bang ok..fun, interesting, not ordinary than usual...*sigh* and guess who fell sick..yup i guessed it..me..what a rip off..i was so sick that the second day i had to stay in bed till noon..i was so sad that i could not participate..den after my red cross camp theres another camp that im suppose to go to..but then he was the first one to tell me not to go..den i wondered to myself..wow..i confessed to him about how i feel yet i thought it would be awkward(sry dunno how to spell..heh) to talk to him..or the other way round..but he still cared...i was touched..so i kept on telling myself when i was going home..yes..he sill cares..but sometime i just wanna ask him whether i could think of us more than friends but not lovers...like siblings..(thats the closest i could think of)..well if that person reads this i just wanna say thank you..and lets talk like normal not so formal just because of that time..lol..well see you all around...sayonara..

love...

2007-11-18T22:40:00.000-08:00

hey there..
have you ever fallen in love?...of course u have, everyone has..(sry stupid qns.)...well all my crushes seemed so real and lovely but when you take it to reality, it just won't work...you all know the saying 'love at first sight'..most love feelings are like that...some just dont semmed logic to you until later...well mine is mostly love at firt sight...many girls have fallen into the arms of man because of their charms..some will make it to more serious stages some not..well u guessed it mine is the bad luck ones...the guys that i liked were (like usual, those manly, handsome types..) way out of my league..but i wanted to take that risk..to put my happiness on the line...im not very pretty or smart or even girlfriend material...oh i dunno...i just wanted to at least have a conversation with them..like buddies...close friends very close...more than friends but not lovers(if they decline me)..so you see i've been down for a long time..because i have waited for this guy for about six years and everytime i hear someone say his name i start to blush...i have no idea why..i kept telling myself that i wasnt right for him..he has better taste than me..than it hit me..we were separated when our secondary school lives started..i never saw him again..or heard from him..than during my sec. sch. life, (of course they were)love starts filling the air..crushes flew here and there..heart-breaks over and over..and sometimes i wonder, am i destined to be single all my life??..is there no one who loves me??(other than my family..)..but than i thougt strucked me..i said to myself why am i like this?? we came from different worlds and why am i still after him??WHY??WHY??WHY??...well will write to you guys soon..and i'm not stating anyone in particular...im not pointing at you..im just letting out my feelings..well gtg..sayonara

sorry everyone...

2007-11-18T22:36:00.000-08:00

hi im sorry about the long blog i wrote its ok if u are lazy to read it..hey its about family..thats the wai it is meant to be..well anyways im terribily sorry...

~my family..~

2007-11-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

hi you bloggers..
wats up...as u can see this blog is about my family..ya its personal but i feel that i must let this out...i cant always hold it in you know..its like a secret and you are dying to tell someone..well when i was about primary six my dad betrayed my family..he went out with another woman..who i like older than him by a decade..(sry..very dramatic...)..he constantly met her and even invited me to see her..my dad told me to not let my mum know coz they are just friends but deep down i know there was something going on..so i told my mum..she was shock(obviously..) she confronted my dad but he just ignored her and kept repeating that they were only friends..for a second there i thought my mum would believe him and guess wat..she did...so since my mum believed him i did too...coz as the saying goes 'moms know EVERYTHING..'but the next year the woman kept calling the house and demanding him to meet her..he went ut always came back home late..he made excuses like there was alot of work..the bus came late...and all sorts of it...one day my mum couldnt take it and went to his working place...i went with her because it was my school holidays..when we reached there, he wasnt there..his working friend told us that he went out with the parking coupon lady..(wateva u call it)..my mum was angered..she was so depressed she wanted to commit succide...by over dosage of unneeded medicine..she would lock herself in te balcony and take the tablets in huge amounts and cry herself to sleep..i was terrified so was my big brother..after consoling herself in the balcony and after me and my brother slept she would crept to the kitchen to put back the medicine..the next day she would do the same but this time its was different coz i didnt want to lose a mum after i loss a dad so when she was walking towards the balcony with the bag of medicine in her hand, i quickly ran to her and snatched the bag of medicine..and kept it lock in a safe in my bedroom..i always kept the key wit me...until my dad came home, i told him about mother and do you wat he did?..he slapped her ..well in a good way that will bring back some sense to my mother but isnt that just quite too much..i mean like he is the one that brought that misery upon her...then Hari Raya came...this is the day that i will never forget..me, my mum and my brother was preparing to go to my mum's closest friend's house for visiting..my dad didin want to go..but its hari raya you see its not nice to ignore your closest friends..so the phone rang and its was that woman..my mum and brother was pissed..1:my mum was pissed off by that woman..2:my brother really wanted to go and he hated that woman...i as busy wearing my tradisional costume...den my mum and my brother started to bad mouth the lady..saying that she is WAY old for him..her children dont even listen to her...and well bad stuff...well its natural..if someone bad mouths ur girl you would go crazy yes??..well he did and he hit my mum and my brother..so to say he abused them...my mum was in front blocking my dad from reaching my brother...and i was behind my brother squating down, covering my head and just thinking wat will happen to my family next...den i found myself angry at them fighting coz we're a family and anything can be resolved without using violence...so i stood up and souted stop..all of them stopped and stared at me..my brother quickly called the police and the report was filed and my mum and dad had to go to court...i and my brother follwed my mum coz she wasnt in the wrong and my dad was the culprit...so i lost a dad...i looked u to him..he was my hero back then before her...

sec 3 camp was a blast!!!

2007-11-15T05:53:00.000-08:00

i was totally mad when we reached the camp site coz its at a deserted place and theres dog and mud all over the place...thought it was gonna be a hard camp journey bu i was wrong..it was totally FUN!!!!..ya it has its bad times but in the end i loved it all...it brought my class-mates together and i was so amazed!!!..the funniest part was that when we did physical training we didnt do it properly so we had to do another punishment..and guess wat was it...we did the 'umbrella'...HAHAHEHEHEH...we put our hand up into a shape of an umbrella and sang Rihanna's umbrella...lol...it was totally funny...only my class did that and the rest of the ppl just laughed at us..its was embrassing but it was funny at the same time..lol..den on the last night there was a show...as u know ost outdoor camps r 3 days n 2 nites rite so i missed my mum ALOT...i cried coz i missed...ALOT..lol..but on that day parents could come and didnt think that she would be able to come..but in the end i saw her and was relieved and so the happie!!..lol..we all needed to perform and our group did a cheer..it goes..'ppl ppl hear us out, come on 3/4(my class) let us shout, but a story or a tale, that will kick you out of scale..we came play,we had some fun, nows the time to sway, till tomorrows sun...' and more..lol..i cant remember..lol..hey guess wat i made that cheer lol...*blush*...lol..well i'll write again..chat 8ter..sayonara...meerah-chan out~